My First Thoughts

I'm still not sure when it all happened but I know I have to do something about it. "It" is my weight. I was always the curveous busty teenager. Used to even model swimwear some for local stores. I never weighed much more than 135 even though I'm 5'6". I know I've been gaining some weight but actually kind of liked it. Until last week that is. I was in our bathroom and just kind of stepped over to the scale. What!!!?? I am now 180 pounds! That scale had to be broken. Unfortunately as I was sitting at my desk...a fellow teacher approached me with a picture of myself to sign for someone's scrapbook. That's when it hit me...I am fat.

I stewed on this fact all weekend. I thought about it while I ate my hamburger and fries. I wondered about it while I drank my 3rd Mountain Dew yesterday. Hmmm...how in the heck did I get so fat? Sheesh.

I decided I needed to take action! I needed a support system...I needed a bite of that ice cream cake in the freezer. Ok, I'm going to need to set a goal for myself. I want it to be obtainable...and realistic. I want to be....hmmm....not fat?? That's probably not a good goal. I looked over the ideal weight for my body type. Ohmygoodness! I can't do that!! sheesh...I would have to like...exercise and cut back on my eating. *GULP* (that isn't me gulping as in shock...I was just drinking some of my chocolate milkshake). Anyway, I am officially going to lose weight before the next school year. There...I set a goal! I feel better, I feel free....I feel...hmmm...confused?? I know I need to lose weight but how much?

Ok, I'm very thinly made...you know bonewise. I mean I have very thin wrists and ankles. I have to get specialized watchbands or just not wear a watch because things slip all the way to by elbows. I'm 5'6" and oh yeah...just hit another milestone in my life..the big 4-0. I have been pregnant 4 times but have two children (that's a story in itself). I don't play any sports (does chauffering children to/from activities count as a sport). I spend most of my time during the day teaching elementary aged children who have behavioral problems how to behave in the real world of school. I walk lots during the day and have been known to benchpress small uncooperative children. I did join the YMCA awhile ago...just cannot seem to find my way there yet.

What is my realistic, obtainable weight goal? Hmmm...I better think on this...right after I get back from Taco Bell. I'll let you know tomorrow what I came up with.